Hey my sweethearts!
I hope you didn't forget me
I had some hard time the last months. For my soul and for my body
Some months ago my boyfriend and I decided that it is the perfect time to become mommy and daddy. So we tried to get a baby. We were excited and couldn't wait to fullfill our dream.
The first months I didn't get pregnant, which is quite normal. Also I had almost my whole life a irregular monthly cycle. So I hadn't really any worries.
In the night from the 18th to the 19th September I felt really really bad. I couldn't sleep, I had cramps and very strong gastrointestinal problems. I just waited for the clock to show 8am, so I could go to my doctor.
I was there and said him that I haven't taken any meds because there is a chance that I am pregnant. He immediately treat me with ultrasound. And we saw something on the screen. He said "Congratulation, it seems that you are pregnant in the 5th week. But I send you to a gynecologist so we can be sure."
He at once called with gynecologists, so I could get a emergency appointment the same day. (because it is quite hard here to get a appointment). I got one and had to be at 11am at the other doctor's.
You can imagine I was pretty happy.
The gynecologists checked me up and said then:
"Hmm, sorry there is no pregnancy. It seems like you have PCOS and it is quite hard for you to get pregnant."
Oh boy, this was a shock. My biggest wish in my life was to have a lots of children. This was the only thing I wanted and I have never thought about that this couldn't be possible.
The doctor did some more tests with me and I got a new appointment for 20th of November so we can talk about how we can treat the problem. (A waiting time of 2 month!)
I was so down and sad; and cried a lot at home the next time.
Almost two very sad weeks went by. I got some cramps in my abdomen. I thought that this could be my menstruation I have waited long for. But it didn't start...
Then I made something silly and I really don't know why I did this. I did a pregnany test.
And it was positive
I started to cry again, because when this should be a joke, it wasn't funny...
I called the gynecologists and told the news and got a appointment for the next day.
I was a nervous wreck.
And after the ultrasound treatment it was clear: I am really pregnant!
The docotor said this was like a small wonder! I was cautiously happy.
Now I am already in the 10th week of pregnency. It wasn't easy the last weeks. It is no easy pregnancy. I have big circulation problems. I have to sit down every 10 minutes or everything goes black. I also have a lot of sickness and really often head ache and neck ache.
In the last month I lost 3,5kg and I have alomost no energy anymore.
BUT still I am very happy! And I hope I can held my baby in my arms in June
I really try to do all my duties here, but please be forgiving with me. I get tired really fast and I sleep a lot.
So, end of wall of text. I hope I could explain everything :3